His Scholar side came to me today and told me that it's time for me to put down the load, that it is his turn to carry it. He knows that I'm scared that he won't pick it up, but if he doesn't then that is on him. If he isn't going to pick up the load, my continueing to carry it alone is only going to hurt me. He can't pick up the load until I put it down, and by my refusing to set it down, I'm depriving him of the opportunity to prove that he is ready to pick it up. I need to set it down and move forward, if he doesn't pick it up then that is on him, but I need to move forward and trust.

That hit differently, it's the same thing my guides, Orion, and my higher self have been telling me, but for some reason his scholar side made it make sense to me. Funny how it's the side that reminds me most of the human that I know. I adore all his sides, Orion, Scholar and Wolf, but deep down it's the human, the scholar who has my heart. He's the one that I continue to search for in every lifetime. "Don't you dare think that that this is the end, you will come find me again." That is the vow we make to each other in every lifetime. But let's be real I'm the one that keeps finding you...